This place may be my brighter side, the other side of the coin, what was lost. I work in a Catholic school, as an atheist there are a number of things that pass right by me. One thing stuck yesterday:
San Antonio look around,
a dear thing is lost that I wish was found.
So the emotion today is sad. Lonely. Lost. There has been fun and sweetness here. The children are dears and I love to watch their games: Ans true to their tweenness:
All is well-ish. I am so far from making things work for me and so much about sacrificing that things feel parched. I feel like I am withering on the vine.